Embracing All

 

She does have leukemia. The words came out of the doctor’s mouth and I was instantly taken back to the day Libby was born. She does have Down Syndrome. It’s amazing how drastically your life can change with a single sentence. I remember how scared we were that day two years ago, but even more, I remember how quickly God dissolved that fear.  The early days were tough, and I was angry with Him, but He was everywhere. God knew all of this before she was born; it was part of His plan. This perfect child, designed perfectly for us, who we fell more in love with than we could have ever imagined.

So here we are again, and this time it’s a leukemia diagnosis. It sucks. It’s scary. But it’s okay. We felt it more quickly this time-almost immediately. God is near.

We continue to strive to embrace it all, everything He gives us. Sometimes it’s really hard, like now, when we feel more than ever we’re on a path we would never have chosen. With that being said, we are also encouraged more than ever because it’s so clear it’s not ours- it’s His.  Ultimately, Libby is not ours- she is His. And He loves her even more than we do.

Hib says as hard as it is, he can’t think of a better person to handle this than Libby. Try as I might, I haven’t come up with a good argument. There has been no one in this world who has had a more profound impact on my faith than Libby. Here she goes again.